
I started to write this post late last week but I got too emotional while writing it and it took turn I didn't want it to. So let's try this again, I was thinking about my sister and other young girls and got to thinking about things I've learned since high school, through college and into my late 20's. And the biggest thing I've learned and would share with others is don't make your life about someone else. Until you are married with a family or until you have a family, never ever make your life about someone else. Live life for you, hell be selfish and don't be afraid to be uncomfortable. Because making your life about someone else and not focusing on yourself can really fuck things up, believe me. From an emotional, financial and even a physical standpoint, if you're not focusing on your own life and where you want to be one day, things can become so far from where you wanted them to be and your life becomes almost unrecognizable when you take a step back.
I spent so much of my 20's wrapped up in someone else's life, be it a boyfriend or friends, etc. And convinced myself that it was okay and how it was supposed to be. I lost friends, gained weight, screwed up my financial life. Didn't follow my own dreams or heart. I have more debt than I thought possible, took out more than necessary in student loans because it was suggested and just went with it. I have low paying jobs, because I didn't follow my heart or my dreams and get into a career that I wanted to be in (because it wasn't where I/we were living). I am an emotional disaster, getting better every day but because I stuck with something I knew wasn't right for so long, it's taking even longer to heal.

What I'm doing now, making moves to better my situation and bounce back. I'm paying off as much of my debt as possible, still leaving myself a little side cash to enjoy my life. I'm working to pay for my life, and I'm also in school to better my life. I plan to go to nursing school and plan to work through the entire process, not taking more debt out. I'm figuring out what I like, who I like and living my life in my own way. Like I mentioned earlier, I haven't been working on my weight loss goals, I've been allowing myself to get distracted with other things. But I do intend on losing more weight, just need to make it happen (along with everything else).
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