Heart Like Mine

I can't believe we are coming to the end of 2012 (and maybe even the world on 12/21 lol)! It got me thinking about my next goal.

I know I said I'd post a weight loss update. And I added a snip of info to my "26 years young" post after the fact including some details. But i am currently weighing in at 232lbs (last I checked, but I need to weigh in again on Sunday because there may have been some extra water weight in that number). Anyways... I am in at 232 and that has me down a total of 54lbs from my highest (ugh, I know.. so terrible). One of my goals was to be 230 by my birthday. Clearly, I didn't hit that target on the nose... but I'm okay with that. I'll just work towards my next goal. Next goal is to be 215 by Feb 14th. That gives me about 8 weeks to lose 17lbs. That may be a high goal, but I'm going to work my ass off to get there, and hopefully I'll make it. If not... thats okay too, but I hope I get there.

I desperately need to go clothes shopping but I don't want to spend the money. The majority of my work pants look ridiculous on me. The butt and upper thigh area is so loose lol, it's amusing to others I'm sure.
I was in a 18W or 20W in work pants and an 18W in Jeans. Now I'm in a 16 (no W) most of the time.. but some brands are iffy so I still fit in some 18 jeans, which is frustrating. It seems like losing that much weight would change the pant sizes a lot but I guess not at the stage I'm at now. Maybe with the next big loss will come different pant sizes. My shirts arre a lot different so that has been a big change, especially in my stomach area.

I would like to lose about 65-70 more pounds so hopefully I can be to my goal weight by Summer of 2013! Thats about 10-12 pounds a month... we'll see how things go! I've said this before but I might get to a point before my goal weight where I'm comfortable and feel okay stopping, I dunno!!!!

That's all I got for now!

If I don't post again... Happy Holidays everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh boys...

So I've had my internet dating profile up since mid October I guess. And I've been on 6 or 7 dates. A friend of mine at work wants me to start journaling the dates because of some of the craziness I've dealt with. I've pondered blogging about it... and I've thought about just keeping a hard copy of it. What do you think? I've had some good dates and those won't be discussed, only the crazy weird ones. If you read this, send me a message or something letting me know if you think I should blog about the insanity or just keep it to myself for now (and maybe release some sort of a novel afterwards haha).

Weight loss updates are coming soon... I keep getting distracted!!!

26 Years Young

I celebrated my 26th birthday this weekend. I am still having a hard time coming to terms with the fact that I am that old. Ugh, it makes me cringe a little. Why is time going so fast? It's not fair, it really isn't. I had a lot of fun on my birthday, I went out with Marybeth & Megan and had a blast, as usual.

Can I tell you, how tired I've been since starting this part time job at Kohls?! I feel like I'm never home and that sleep is in short supply. But it's not that bad, just sometimes time drags on especially when the store is empty.

Back to being 26. I don't know who all reads this silly little blog of mine, but I know what I'm about to say... some of you may think I'm ridiculous. But so be it. I feel like there is a stop watch, counting down. Not counting down to the end of my life, but counting down until 30. I feel like I have so much I have and want to do before I turn 30 and 4 years does not seem like a long enough time to complete it. I want to have kids, but I don't want them past 30. This is just my own personal opinion, I feel like I don't want to be that old when my kids are older... but it's just a personal preference. [Update: I've been told I will change my mind and probably have kids after 30. Riggghhhttt] So apparently I'm supposed to meet my dream man and have babies within the next four years. But to me, that seems so out of reach. So I'm making a assumption here that I will not be having any children. I will be the cool Aunt for when my siblings have kids. Another thing I want to do is go back to school, but I haven't figured out for sure what I want to go for. Right now nursing, teacher, or a masters in biology seems intriguing. But here I am standing around being indecisive as usual. I just know that I need to get another degree or figure out what the hek I'm doing. So for me 26 was not a "fun" birthday. Yes of course, I had fun when I went out. I mean more that turning 26, the act of entering my "late" twenties has me a bit overwhelmed. Crap.

Weight loss update....

I haven't weighed in, in two weeks. Ooops! I need to get on that scale. I need to be  accountable, and I will do it tonight when I get home!!! I will post tonight or tomorrow with updates.

*UPDATE*
So this is being added after the fact. My goal was to be at 230 by my birthday (December 8th). But when I weighed in I was at 232lbs. So I missed my goal by two pounds, but ya know what I'm definitely not upset about it. Because in total, I am down 54 mother bleeping pounds. :-)

I am thankful...

I am tired, so tired. I got home from work last night around 11:40pm and I went straight to bed! I woke up early this morning around 5:30am and went for a long walk in the neighborhood, up and down the large hill for added exercise. Showered & went to work. I'm here until 4:30pm and then I'm at Kohls from 6pm-12:30am. Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and so I started to think of what I'm thankful for. Some of these thanks are quite meaningful and others are completely random, but I'm still thankful. for them!

1. My family. I feel like grouping them in one post may not be the right choice. However, I am so incredibly thankful for them. My mom, dad, brother Ryan, & sister Kelsey. I do not know what I would do if they weren't in my life. We all may not always get along, and I'll go ahead and admit that 60% of that is usually my fault but I wouldn't have it any other way.

2. Kelsey. Yes she does fall into family but she also gets her own post.
Is it possible to have a best friend that is 14 years younger than you? I think so, maybe a different type of friend. We may not share the stories that we share with our friends our own age. I may not share dating or bar stories with her and she does not always share the middle school drama & boy crush things with me. But we can completely be ourselves around eachother without worry or judgement. Because let me tell you, girls are so judgemental at any age. We have a standing evening activity of watching old episodes of Gilmore Girls. And we just belt out the opening song together every time, and it's something I look forward to every week. I don't know what we'll do when we reach the end of the series! LOL We can just hang and lounge and I guess that's what having a sister is like. I just only re-discovered it this summer, especially because she is at an age where we can do this. 10 years ago, when I was 16, she was only 2 so it was more me hanging out with her watching Monsters, Inc. and no one was chatting with the other. Anyways, without rambling anymore, I just am so thankful for her. And her advice, when I can ask it, is so incredibly simple and perfect.

3. Megan. I feel like I am extra thankful for Megan recently. I was a shitty friend for a few years, for various reasons but I'm so happy that we've been hanging out again. I don't think I ever laugh quite as hard as I do when with her. We both say some of the craziest shit when we're together, especially if we've been drinking. And we can talk about anything, and when I say anything... I mean ANYTHING. LOL there is nothing reserved about any of our conversations. I'm not being a shitty friend ever again. Sticking to the mantra "Chicks before Dicks"!!!!!!

4. My friends as a whole. I've really realized how as I've gotten older. Quality of friends has become so much more important that quantity. I have a good group of girlfriends I can really rely on.

Sadaf is a newish friend, we've been friends now for about a year and because we work together and spend 40 hours a week around eachother, I'd say we are really good friends only because she knows EVERYTHING. Lol. It's amazing how you can have a friend so quickly and they know you as well if not better than someone you've known 10 years!

Megan was already mentioned but she goes along with this group of girls... Megan, Kim, Marybeth, & Sabrina. I've had a lot of fun with these ladies the past few months. And going back to what I said before... I'm not being a shitty friend anymore. Some of the four are closer than others, but I really enjoy spending time with them and feel like we can talk about anything together and can relate very well to each others current situations!

Phil... Oh Phil! Though you are away in another country, I am still thankful for you! Though we're not talking that much on a serious level right now.. I know that if I did need you as a listening ear or if I needed you for anything at all... you'd be there for me. And I am very thankful for that! Paris 2013, yeahhh!

I have a few other friends that I'm very thankful for as well.. you know who you are :)

5. Jobs.. yeah I'm thankful for them... whatever. On to the next..

6.Newman! Yes I am so thankful for my little love bug. He is the bun to my burger, the pen to my paper, the french to my fry... you get it! I love that little ass, he's the best dog a girl could ask for!

7.My life. I am so thankful for my life.. don't know what else to say about it...

8. Charlie Humnam.. yep. That's it.. just thankful for him and for FX for allowing me to look at him every Tuesday night.

I thought I had a lot more.. but it seems that is it for now. Perhaps some more will come to me later and I can add to this tonight or tomorrow.

Have a happy thanksgiving everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thanksgiving!

 I am in disbelief that Thanksgiving is already around the corner! I am having a hard time with the fact that almost 6 full months have gone by since I've moved home, etc. And I'm almost 3 full months into my weight loss journey or whatever you want to call it. Crazy how time flies!

I weighed and measured in yesterday, and I'm a bit bloated this week but it looks like I'm down 3 pounds. But I didn't weigh in last week. I need to invest in a digital scale, because the one I've been using is old school!!!

With thanksgiving coming up on Thursday, I was thinking about what I'm going to eat, etc. I think that I've planned it out in my head. White meat turkey, green bean casserole (if there is any), salad (if there is any), and yeah depending on what other veggies are there I'll add those. But I know I won't be eating any potatoes, sweet potatoes, stuffing, bread, pie, desert, etc. Keep it away from my side of the table! LOL.

I've become more narcissistic if you will, as I take tons of "selfie" pics these days. I often find myself just taking snapshots of myself in the car, in my room, watching TV, at a friends house, at the bars, on my couch. It's a bit ridiculous, but I think that means I'm getting more comfortable in my own skin... hopefully not too comfortable because I still have a ways to go. Pretty funny when my sister catches me taking pictures of myself, oops! This picture to the top right, of me sitting on the couch. I look at my legs and they look so much smaller than they used to. I know I'm cray, but that's alright with me :) The pic a little above to the left is before my workout the other day Gotta love the pink danskin stuff from walmart, my favorite work out stuff b/c it's so cheap. So with my sizes changing, I don't mind buying it because pants, shirts, & jackets are only like $8-$20 a piece. When I look at that picture, I see more jaw definition and more dimples, etc in my cheeks.

I think going through a quarter life crisis this year LOL. As I approach my 22nd bday (aka 26... but shh), I realize where I am in life and how I feel far behind. I know it's not true, whatever, but can't help how you feel. Anyways, I'm planning to go out on my birthday and whether it is just me and one friend or me and 20 friends, I'm  DETERMINED to have an unforgettable night. Not because it is my birthday, I am going to celebrate my 6 months and my 3 months. My 6 months after making my decision to be single, and my 3 months of losing weight. So I know that it will be EPIC regardless!! Here's to me!

   

Photo Update

Ok so I had some spare time tonight so I decided to take some full body pictures and compare them to full body pictures from before my weight loss journey started. I'm almost down 50lbs so see for yourself! Excuse my worn look, I only got like 4.5 hours of sleep last night! Tsk tsk, a big part of the success to weight loss is getting a full nights sleep, oops! 

The before pics are a bit random, but I didn't take any before shots when I originally started (which I kind of regret). So the ones below are all really random! But still gives the gist! I'm going out this weekend with some friends and I'm planning to take a crap ton of pictures, full body too! But these taken with the help of my mirror will have to do for now! Hopefully the pics below show the differences that I see!

Can't wait for the next set of before & afters!

Anything Could Happen

So I have a few things to update on today but of course yesterday I forgot to weigh & measure in so I'll do that tonight! And as always, sharing some of my favorite new pinterest pics, today is quotes.

I took a part time job at Kohls and started on Saturday for orientation. I go back for day one of training on Tuesday night. So it will be a long day, working until 430pm and then at Kohls at 6pm-10pm. Fun stuff! I think I'll be working on average 15 hours a week and getting paid every Friday that will give me at least $100 each week. That will cover gas and spending money for the most part. So the plan is that my full time income will all go towards my loans. And I'll put a little into savings to save for some things I am doing next year.

My weekend was pretty busy, Friday night I had a date and then met up with a friend for drinks. Saturday morning included my Kohls orientation and then I came home for a long unexpected nap. Then I spent the evening getting things ready for Sunday's vendor show for Pure Romance. I was putting together goodie bags, etc and getting my stock and all ready. I realized how badly I need more organization in my life, especially with all the pure romance things. So that's now on my to do list. The vendor show was a good time, bought some scentsy products for the first time so I can't wait to get those plugged in! We got a good amount of contacts for parties & new clients and sold some products as well. Had a lot of fun working it with Sarah, always a good time when we get together, lots of laughs!

Let me jump back to Friday night. Without going into too much detail, I will just say that this was my first "date" in almost 6 years! All in all I think it went well, if nothing else it was practice for the next one. But I was a bottle of nerves for no reason. I felt like I was 16 or something, it was insanity. I'm not going to divulge anymore details on that but figured I'd share a little bit.

So a quick update on my goals, one of my first goals was to lose 20 lbs by my birthday (dec 8). And so I have about 9lbs to go in 5 weeks (now I don't know it may be less, didn't weigh in yesterday). I think that is completely doable, maybe I'll do better than that! Wooo hoo! I have to figure out how to reward myself for meeting that goal!!!!

Until next time...