"Ch-Ch-Ch-Ch-Changes, turn and face the strange" - David BowieHere I am to the right, toasting to the new changes going on in my life!--------->
I've decided to start blogging to track all thats happening in my life right now. So much has been going on and so little has been going on, all at once. Where do I start?
3 months have gone by since I made one of the hardest, best decisions yet. I won't go into too much detail since it's somewhat private and I don't want to be the person who puts someone else's private life on display. But I broke up with my boyfriend of over 5 years, 65 months to be exact. It was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do, but it was something that needed to happen. No regrets! The hardest parts were ending things because though I knew it was what I needed, I was so used to being with that person and seeing them almost every single day for such a long time. The other horrible part was this person was one of my best friends, and ending things meant shattering his world, hurting him in a way I would never want to hurt anyone. These were reasons I had stayed for so long, and I just reached a point where I had to get past that and understand that he would be okay. It was worse for me to stay unhappy in a relationship to not hurt him, when ultimately it would hurt him more to be with someone who didn't want to be with him anymore. Anyways, not only did I end something that had been such a significant part of my life, but as a result of that, I had to move. During memorial day weekend, my dog Newman & I headed back to the country.
We moved back in with my parents, brother, sister, and Toby (the Boxer). It's been quite a whirlwind and a huge adjustment. But moving back in with all of them is probably the best thing I could have done. I've spent the last few years only seeing my family a few times a year (even when they only lived 30-45 minutes away). I don't know what possessed me to do this, I guess I just got busy? Well, really there is no excuse. Spending time with them, especially my sister has made it hard not to regret choices I've made in the past. Like the choice to move in with my ex, and not move home after college. The choice to not come home and hang out at every open opportunity. But I've also shut those thoughts down, because in my opinion there is no point in thinking what if, or having regrets because what can be done? I can only learn from the past and change the way I act in the future. Plus as my dad said, "all of it was a learning experience."
So since I've experienced some serious change, I've been recuperating and getting back to me. Adjusting to my "new" life has been an experience, but not nearly as scary as I thought. Back in March/April, I started changing my eating habits and working out to start losing weight. I lost about 15 lbs between March & the end of May. I hit a stand still which I know is due to all the chaos/changes going on. The miracle is that I was able to keep it off and not pack it back on when things were pretty bad. So I'm getting back to basics and jump starting my weight-loss journey. I'm starting this new plan, Fat Loss Factor. I'm going to try to follow it completely but if nothing else, I'll be using it as a guide. It starts off with 2 weeks of eating only veggies, fruits, beans, nuts, & seeds. No meat & no dairy. After those 2 weeks, the good doctor suggests doing a cleanse, which I'm going to try out. The cleanse is 3 days on, 3 days off, and 3 days back on. After the cleanse you can introduce meat & dairy back into your life but on a small level. The goal is to cut portion size and be a clean eater. We shall see how this goes, it will definitely be a roller coaster ride! I've been walking a bunch lately, more than my 5 minute dog walks twice a day. I started the couch to 5k program, and plan to continue that. I'm currently 5'10" and 270lbs (at my highest I was 286lbs *sigh*), I never knew if I wanted to admit that on here, but I figure... what the hell. Everyone knows what I look like, now they just have a number to go with it. I have to decide what my ultimate goal is, but I think I would like to end up in the 150-175 range, but we'll see what happens!! I think once I get started with this, I'll see what I need to be at and make a definite decision!
This blog will be about whats going on with my life, the weight loss journey, and everything in between. Stay tuned!
We moved back in with my parents, brother, sister, and Toby (the Boxer). It's been quite a whirlwind and a huge adjustment. But moving back in with all of them is probably the best thing I could have done. I've spent the last few years only seeing my family a few times a year (even when they only lived 30-45 minutes away). I don't know what possessed me to do this, I guess I just got busy? Well, really there is no excuse. Spending time with them, especially my sister has made it hard not to regret choices I've made in the past. Like the choice to move in with my ex, and not move home after college. The choice to not come home and hang out at every open opportunity. But I've also shut those thoughts down, because in my opinion there is no point in thinking what if, or having regrets because what can be done? I can only learn from the past and change the way I act in the future. Plus as my dad said, "all of it was a learning experience."
So since I've experienced some serious change, I've been recuperating and getting back to me. Adjusting to my "new" life has been an experience, but not nearly as scary as I thought. Back in March/April, I started changing my eating habits and working out to start losing weight. I lost about 15 lbs between March & the end of May. I hit a stand still which I know is due to all the chaos/changes going on. The miracle is that I was able to keep it off and not pack it back on when things were pretty bad. So I'm getting back to basics and jump starting my weight-loss journey. I'm starting this new plan, Fat Loss Factor. I'm going to try to follow it completely but if nothing else, I'll be using it as a guide. It starts off with 2 weeks of eating only veggies, fruits, beans, nuts, & seeds. No meat & no dairy. After those 2 weeks, the good doctor suggests doing a cleanse, which I'm going to try out. The cleanse is 3 days on, 3 days off, and 3 days back on. After the cleanse you can introduce meat & dairy back into your life but on a small level. The goal is to cut portion size and be a clean eater. We shall see how this goes, it will definitely be a roller coaster ride! I've been walking a bunch lately, more than my 5 minute dog walks twice a day. I started the couch to 5k program, and plan to continue that. I'm currently 5'10" and 270lbs (at my highest I was 286lbs *sigh*), I never knew if I wanted to admit that on here, but I figure... what the hell. Everyone knows what I look like, now they just have a number to go with it. I have to decide what my ultimate goal is, but I think I would like to end up in the 150-175 range, but we'll see what happens!! I think once I get started with this, I'll see what I need to be at and make a definite decision!
This blog will be about whats going on with my life, the weight loss journey, and everything in between. Stay tuned!
